When I was 8 years old, I made my first movie. It was based off a book I wrote. As I grew older, I made many more short films with my sister. They weren't scripted and usually lacked a plot, actual special effects, and guys. It was my dream to be a movie director/editor/actress/literally every spot in the credits. (I'm not kidding. In my movies, the end credits were littered with my name.) Whenever someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, my answer was, "I'm not quite sure, but I want to do something in the film industry."
As I matured, I wanted to make better films. But, I didn't have the resources to make the movies I wanted to make. I wanted to make an awesome medieval movie with dragons...but I only had 2 actors (though sometimes 4), nothing to make a CGI dragon, and no medieval costumes. I kept coming up with stories, so I created movies with words.
Slowly, I became more devoted to writing than filmmaking. I took up graphic design, where I can make fantastical images. Though I didn't want to admit it...my dream of being a filmmaker faded. It isn't my dream anymore.
My dream now? To share God's love through quality books and graphic design.
I don't feel God calling me to go into the movie industry. I feel him calling me to be a storyteller with words and still images. Right now, I kinda feel like a little of me is dying, but it's good. I'm changing. God is directing me to where He wants me to go. And it's beautiful. I can't wait for the future.
Wow. That was so sad! :( But it was amazing. :) My brother and I would make movies ALL the time when we were little, and I always wanted to be an actress. But now, I write books. :) It was actually weird reading this post, because it sounded like me. :) One of my dreams was to be in the military. VERY big dream. But, my mom pointed out to me that my personality wouldn't allow it. I have a soft heart, and can't even kill a rat that is stealing our eggs from the barn. Now, I don't really know what my dream is. I guess I'll keep writing until God gives me a new one. :) Sorry for the long comment. ;) Keep writing. :D
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It is pretty sad, but I'm so glad I've realized that my dreams are changing! Wow! That's awesome. I bet you and your brother have so many great memories.
DeleteThat's such a sad story. I'm sure God will show you a new dream. :)
Totally been there.
ReplyDeleteI think we all have. :)
DeleteBeautiful. So proud of you and excited for you, friend. And I know this can be hard, but God gave you every single dream in your head for a reason! And it looks like one purpose for the filmmaking dream was to get you writing!
ReplyDeleteI have a feeling He'll still use your love for filmmaking in the future. He's full of surprises. But I'm praying for you and cheering you on as you pursue this beautiful adventure called writing!
Thank you so much! I know He did. He's amazing like that! Yes, it definitely was.
DeleteThank you so much for your friendship, prayers, and encouragement, Nadine!